Keeping It Together

I am so grateful that things have been looking up. Rich should be starting his new job next week. That's a huge plus and a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders.

I find myself having some wild dreams lately. The dreams I had the other night I can't remember. Last night I remembered one of the dreams. It basically was me being attacked by either a ghost, or invisible person. They were holding me down in such a way that it was like sleep paralysis. I couldn't move, and I couldn't yell or speak. But it was only in my dream. It felt real but I don't believe I was having a sleep paralysis moment. I remember my bedroom door opening. After having encounters with this being before in the same dream, I started throwing things at it from my bed. It was clear something was getting hit, because the objects I threw bounced off of nothingness. Then it came over and held me down. I ended up waking up shortly after that at about 3am. I couldn't go back to sleep till after 4am. I read that it could mean that I feel overpowered by people or circumstances and it makes me feel threatened. Which could be true.

I lost my Assistant Manager, as she had a great opportunity come up for her, so she moved on to bigger and better things. I had someone in line for the position that we were banking on for the last 3 weeks. She let us know yesterday that she changed her mind. So of course, I will be working 6 days a week until I can get some help. This all while I'm trying to go look at houses. I work till 6pm everyday. So not having a day off during the week is not helping us as far as being able to view homes. Rich's new job will have him working 7pm to 7am, Tuesday through Friday. So the window is even smaller. Some of the places we are looking at are 30 minutes away. So, its just making things complicated. Luckily with him working full time....I can at least not feel so stressed about trying to find a place over the next 2 months. Him working full time now gives us the ability to go month to month on our current lease. It would not have worked if he hadn't gotten this job opportunity.

In addition to all of this, Marley has her first dentist appointment tomorrow morning. My dumbass scheduled it for 7am so I could get her to school and me to work when we need to be there. So tomorrow will be a long day. I have a dentist appointment next week. Luckily I got approved to just open my site late, so I don't have to reschedule it for a second time.

I feel a bit tired, as I am probably a little stressed deep down. But I feel that I am maintaining well at this point. Plus you know teachers want you to do a bunch of extra shit with your kids to help them out, like doing site word lists and reading "baggy books" every single night. I just don't have the time for it! This is why she goes to school. Most weeks I can fit it in 1 good time. With Rich's schedule(he works overnights), he is often on and off asleep during the day so he's no real help to me. I'll be SO HAPPY when school is over. about 6 more weeks!

Keep me in your thoughts my friends. I'm hanging in there. There's a lot of transitions happening all at once and I think its just a lot on my brain. I just got to keep positive and keep manifesting the things we need. I got this.